♥Daily Diary♥

Dear Diary...
I felt like I should update at some point
This diary is becoming more of a bi-weekly diary rather than daily whoops!
I suppose I don't have anything that interesting to talk about.

The last interesting thing I did was my meetup I mentioned before.
I only managed to get rid of my black cameron headband and a pair of socks haha.
I think my Meta sailor set will just live in the back of my wardrobe forever
Oh and my coord,

Nothing special of course, but I got to wear my new cannotier
Oh and the girl that sold it to me was unexpectedly at the meet!
She was selling a super cute Putumayo skirt, but it was so tiny I didn't get it.
I instead got this:

A Victorian Maiden Rococo Bouquet Hand Towel
OK, it's not clothing but I like these novelty kind of things
And I love Rococo Bouquet
Since I don't think I can fit into VM I figured this would be a nice compromise haha.

And as you can see I've been updating my site
I'm trying to get through uploading the pictures for my wardrobe.
And I added some lyrics,
And updated my links page. I finally got round to adding more brand sites.
The problem is linking sites is not a thing anymore so I had to go back in the archive to get the banners.

Hm, what else?
I'm going back to uni soon.
I don't want to think about it, but still, I am revising in advance
I forgot how to write loads of kanji.
But I've never been too good at remembering them.
Luckily? I have a good short term memory, so at least I can remember them for exams

Anyways, that's all for today.
I would like to go to a museum sometime soon, so at least I'll have something to write about.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
Hello
It's been a while.
I've been meaning to write for a while actually.
So I'll try to remember what's been going on.
I should write more often so I don't forget.

I'm still keeping up with running.
In fact I run at 7am, so I wake up at 6:30am.
It's a big deal for someone that doesn't like getting up before 10am.
But it's okay. When you run don't think about being sleepy.
As I said I should write about my trials and tribulations in the diet section of my site.
I can't remember everything but..I'll try to write there.

Oh, and Tuesday was Hatari's gig.
It ended up being 32 degrees that day.
Here is my coord.

I wanted to wear coord suitable for a rock concert.
But still keep it cute.

I wore falsies too. They look surprisingly good even without circle lens.
I want some new circle lens, but right now I'm kind of content with my small eyes.

Overall the gig was great! But I was not...
My blood pressure acted up and I pretty much collapsed.
It was really scary.
If you wanna know all about it I've written a report about it all, and I will link it here when I publish it.
I will get a blood test soon.
I've known I've not been well for a while, but I've been too scared to face it.
This was my wake up call, I guess.

Tomorrow I have meet up.
My straw hat will make it's debut.
I also have the opportunity to sell some stuff.
But I won't buy anything..

Luckily, my student loan will come next month.
Can't believe I'll be back to uni soon.
I changed my major a bit, so I'm kind of excited?
What I'm studying sounds really fancy and impressive haha.
I am going to prepare in advance this time around!
I'll try, at least.
Goodnight.

Dear Diary...
I can't believe I haven't written in my diary for so long
I have been checking Neocities but I've had nothing to write.
But I felt like at the very least I should update my blog regularly.
But nothing has really happened this week, as far as I can remember.

I went running today.
My mother has been doing the Couch to 5k thing and ran a 5k marathon this summer.
She's been doing really well, and it's good for weight maitenence.
So she invited me to start running with her.
I have tried to do this sort of running thing once or twice, but due to unwated comments from men during running alone, I've been too scarred to go again.
So it's better that I can go with someone else now.

It's my first try, so I found it really hard.
I kind of wanted to quit.
But you can't just stop right? It doesn't make sense..
It's tough, but I'm sure I'll be able to do it.
It's for 9 weeks, so I'll have to stick with it.
I'm just envisioning myself wearing Mode Girl this Christmas.

So I won't weigh myself, I think. Just take measurements.
So that's that. I said I wanted to make use of the diet section of my writing page, so I can write about running there.
Oh and I gotta start counting calories again.

Hatari gig is next week!
Ah the shirt I wanted is sold out so I will have to get the less nice one.
I really should buy it today so hopefully it'll arrive on time.

Oh yeah I've been playing New Style Boutique again
I'm having a lot of fun! I need to add more pictures I took.
And maybe add some lyrics. I'm in perpetual writer's block these days though.
I'd usually say goodnight here, but it's actually the afternoon,
So goodbye!

Dear Diary...
I'm so tired right now.
I went out briefly to buy some things.

My coord today which I wanted to be simple.
I usually wear this dress around the house because it's comfy and the sleeves make it hard to wear in unsuitable weather.
In fact, it was a bit hot because it's cotton.

I met a somewhat former lolita who was selling some stuff.
So, I got this BABY straw cannotier and Meta socks.
I've wanted either a straw mini hat or a normal straw hat with ribbon ties, so this is a happy medium.
Also I really like the meta socks, even though my calves are too big so the letters warp. Boo.
The hat is cute though, perfect for summer. I just need to clean the ties and try to flatten the lace.

I will wear it to this month's meet.
I wasn't going to go, but I've decided on some things I want to sell.
My BABY Cameron headbands that I NEVER wear so have no need to hold on to,
My pink Meta skirt which even when I lose weight so it's comfy, is always going to be too short,
And my Meta sailor set that I don't even have on my wardrobe page!
The skirt is a least less than 40cm long.
There's no point holding onto things I never wear or will wear.

On the way home, I noticed this magazine at the train station so of course I picked up a copy.

I feel like 'cute' is never really talked about, and I was surprised that apparently 'cuteness' is such a big deal here.
Personally I don't think cute is popular here.
Of course they mentioned Japan, home of kawaii.
And of course, they mentioned lolita fashion.
In a non-biased, fully researched way?
Of course not! When has lolita ever been represented in a positive way by Western media?
The article doesn't even mention the origins but suggests it's worn as backlash against strong women.
Even though I have no expectations for good representation in the media, and I wish rather, that they'd leave us alone, it quite frankly annoyed me.
I don't want to go off on some sort of defense about lolita because it will never be understood or accepted,
But, I'd just like to point out that wearing cute clothes doesn't make me weak.
Wearing a business suit doesn't make me intelligent.
And wearing a revealing bodycon dress doesn't make me a slut.
I can wear what I want, and I can like what I like!

In other news, I've almost sorted out my uni stuff.
Looks like it'll take 2 years rather than 1 to graduate.
But that's what I get for dropping 2 classes last time.
I really have to get myself together
I can do it!

Oh and a selfie! Thank you for 20k views!
I hope to make this site better and better
Goodnight

Dear Diary...

Nothing much has been going on recently
I've been having a very dull and quite dreary time recently.
I might have caught a cold today too.
But I thought I might as well write something today.

I went shopping on Saturday.
Just the usual. I might go clothes shopping with my mum soon.
I don't have interest in fast fashion much, anymore, but I could use some cardigans and tops that I can wear casually.
Oh here's my outfit too.

I wore my BABY blouse with my TOPSHOP pinafore dress.
I wear this dress a ton, it's comfy and long and suits any weather.
I usually like to wear it most in autumn/winter with a polo neck jumper.
Oh yeah, I made a page for my normal clothes wardrobe a while back.
Or rather some of my interesting clothes.

Today I ran some errands but spent so long deciding what to wear I didn't bother go to central.
I always take forever. I decided what I wanted to wear last night then almost tried on my whole wardrobe this morning.
I ended up wear gingham cherry.

Just something simple.
I've been searching for the hat that goes with this dress and I missed it a while ago on Closet Child.
Worst feels. I know it'll come around again, but I really bought the dress because I like the hat so much.
I have the headbow but it's a bit too big for casual wear.
Oh well.

I wanted to write about my diet in the writing section of my site.
I haven't been on my diet properly for ages, and it sucks.
I was terrified to, but I weighed myself this morning.
And to my abosulte surprise I'm at my lowest weight since I started my diet.
I thought I would have gained at least 2kg for sure.
So I think I will try to go back on my diet from now.
I still want to lose 7kg.
I really want to wear Mode Girl. And I decided that if I don't lose the weight by the end of Winter then I'll sell the dress.
It's more depressing to own something so beautiful if I can't even zip it up.
I figured if I put an ultimatum on it, I will be able to try harder.
So I was thinking to update something about my diet weekly.
But I don't want to write my weight.

I'll figure something out later.
I have so much more on plate to deal with right now!
I'm super tired.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
Wow it's been so so long.
Far far too long, right?
I've just not had time or motivation to update my site.
In fact I was feeling a bit burned out doing Neocities.
So I took a break.
But my laptop is reaching it's final days which encouraged my to come before it legitmately dies.
My trackpad is dead officially.
But I'm glad it's all still working at least.

Last time I was updating my write up about Paris, but I didn't finish oops.
Can I even remember what happened?
I didn't even write about the most important thing
Angelic Pretty Paris!
I will try to finish writing it soon.

What else?
I've been pretty up and down recently.
I think I'm just bored.
I'm going back to uni this autumn so I should be studying.
But I don't feel like doing anything.

As for this site, I really want to complete my wardrobe page.
At least I should upload all the pictures of my dresses.
I'm too 'my pace'.

Well I will try to update bit by bit from now.
See you

Dear Diary...
Wow, it's been a while since I've written here.
Nothing much has been going on. I added some stuff to my site a while ago, if you check the homepage.

I'm going away tomorrow for my birthday weekend.
I'm going to Paris.
I can finally visit a brand store.
I absolutely plan to get a black parasol.
Too bad Angelic Pretty isn't like my fave brand.
Not even their accessories tempt me.
But I'll be happy to look at new stuff in the shop.
Maybe I will like something.
I plan to go to as many museums as possible.
I love museums.. I can't wait to go to Louvre.
Gosh, it's going to be absolutely sweltering.
How is Paris so hot compared to London when we're so close!

I talked to J finally yesterday.
It was so great.
He likes me a lot.
It's quite hard to accept that.
Because he's so gorgeous..!
I'll definitely try to see him by the end of the year.

I didn't even write in my diary to talk about how excited I am that Hatari are coming to London!
I'm going to see them in August.
I'm super excited!

I wrote a new song today after a long time.
I'm feeling good.
I will try to take lots of pictures in France.
See you later!

Dear Diary...
Today I went to the museum.
I didn't know what to wear so ended up like this.

It was quite hard to get a pic of this dress, my petti is too short so it hasn't got a great shape.
But I just wanted to have relaxing day so I felt a bit casual today.
I wore ballet flats too *calls the lolita police*

I went to the Wallace Collection, my favourite museum.
It's basically has only (?) Rococo era art and furniture.
So it's like a dreamworld to me.
I always feel so floaty and light after going around that museum.
I love the extravagance and frivolousness of the Rococo era.
I feel like wearing lolita is like that, it's kind of ornamental because of its beauty.

I have a ton of pictures from various visits.
I was going to upload them in my gallery sometime.
Here's some I liked today.

The last one very much fits with the theme 'how to become an angel' haha.

I also went to pick up some stuff from the Japanese supermarket.
I really wanted mentaiko pasta sauce but they had none...
An old Japanese lady exclaimed to me あら！かわいい！ when she came into the same aisle haha.
I'm surprised to spoken to in Japanese. I was caught off guard but did manage a thank you.
Also I happened to bump into my friend who was also in lolita aha.
It's extremely rare to see another lolita in the wild lol.
Whenever I go out I hope to see some interestingly dressed people.
I did see a woman in trousers that were like, the American flag, so that was... pretty interesting.
I do see some trendy boys and girls sometimes.
I wish there were more alternative people around.

Anyways I'm tired.
I might put up a new lyric or two.
Oh yeah, I should text J like I said yesterday..
Oh, but I don't want to get in touch with my emotions right now!
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
Hello
I'm tired but I wanted to write something today.
I've been doing some stuff to my site the past few days - finally.
I embarked on the mission of taking pictures of my wardrobe.
It took ages and I suck at pictures, but I think they came out okay
I'm adding pages for close up shots and such, so it's gonna take a while to finish.
Not to mention I need to get pics of accessories and stuff too.

Looking at my clothes makes me feel happy.
Like I just want to wear them and go out straight away.
I guess I can appreciate them more, when they're not squashed in my tiny wardrobe.
I want a job, so I can buy new dresses.
Still, I need to save up to go to Japan.
That's my priority. Or it should be.
I just love dresses too much.

A Seiko Matsuda song just came on.
Why do I suddenly feel so emotional?
I'm always so moved by her voice..
Music transcends language.
I love it.

I wish I had some real talent.
I'm uploading more lyrics too these days.
Art is art right?
Even if I feel stupid, it's still something right?
I haven't written in months...
I feel like I want to write to music, but I don't play anything.
I will be able to one day, though.

I haven't talked to J in 2 weeks.
I told him not to call me last time we talked.
Well, it was kinda his fault...
Ugh..
That time I was thinking, my life was simpler without needing to think about a boy.
I was happy enough to be alone, thinking I'd be alone forever.
I thought it'd be like that anyways.
It's always been like that, I've always had my hobbies.
I didn't need anyone.

I'm turning 22 soon.
I'm literally an adult.
And things are changing.
I do want something more now.
For the first time, I want someone.
I know it sounds crazy, I've gone through my whole youth alone.
But I was fine like that.
Life is complicated!

I won't be stubborn.
I'll text him.
Goodnight.

Dear Diary...
Today I ran some errands.

I forgot how pretty this dress is.
Oh yeah, my hair combs came yesterday.
I was on the fence about hair combs (the price mostly) but they're great!
They are bigger than I thought they would be.
Now I would like to collect more.

Weird storytime.
From time to time you will meet strange people whilst wearing lolita..
So, I was in a shop and some man was clearly calling to get my attention.
I had my headphones on as usual so did not really react for a while.
I noticed him and he complimented my coord so I said thanks, of course.
Usually I don't get people talking to me when I'm out and about alone.
So I'm usually quite flustered when it comes to receiving compliments.

I thought this interaction might be over, but he asked where my dress was from.
So I said 'the internet' like a bit of a numpty. But he seemed satisfied enough with that answer.
Then he goes, 'you look like a...' (baited breath) 'doll!'.
'Oh thanks!' that's nice I thought. Now I can go back to shopping...
'A bla-AFRICAN DOLL!'
Errr.. wha.
'Blondes are OvErRaTeD!!' (and stuff like that)
Aaah..
'White girls are old news!! We need more Black queens like you!!!' (or something like that)
Also note, this guy was White.
He seemed to be completely unaware of how awkward the situation was, as I'm pretending to look at an item so he'll go away.
His final words are 'You're great to look at' as he walks out of sight (thank God)

It was absolutely bizzare.
Honeslty I felt completely embarrassed.
Having a stranger inadvertedly announce their fetish, to your face.
Maybe it was a case of spilling spaghetti, but it was creepy anyways.
Once he fixated on my race I knew it would all go downhill from there.
I don't know if he was expecting me to feel elated that he thinks white girls aren't all that great.
It was just embarrassing and unnecessary.
Also the assumption that I'm straight up from Africa was just cringe..
Instead of the 'But where are you REALLY from?' thing it was the 'You're DEFINITELY from ...' thing.

In conclusion, some things are better kept to yourself.
Compliments are nice of course, but just keep it simple.
But most preferably, headphones in might suggest that I don't want to talk.
Speaking of, those people that are always trying to get you to donate to something ALWAYS target me.
I literally would be walking off the pavement into the street to avoid them and they won't give up.
I'm broke sir.
I'm like Marie Antoinette, like the fancy clothes and that.

I have to wake up early for the meet tomorrow anyways.
I've been writing so long.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
I have nothing much to write today, I think.
Nothing much has been going on recently.
I went shopping recently.
Here's my coord, I also updated my EGL wardrobe too btw.

It was so hot that day, I wanted to wear a skirt.
I don't wear this skirt out much since I have nothing to coord it with.
So it's kinda mismatched. But I like it.
I wanted to find a colourful 60s dress, but no luck, as usual.
I found some cute dresses but they all had some sort of fit issue.

It's International Lolita Day on Saturday.
It's my 3rd year technically.
Time flies. Money disappears.
Speaking of, I got a customs charge on my bloomers.
I haven't shopped online for so long, I forgot about that happening.
I'm hoping some hair combs I bought arrive by Saturday.
They seem to have arrived in the country but have fallen off the radar.
If it's customs charge I'm screwed.

May is already ending.
I'll be going to Paris for my birthday weekend.
I'll be able to take my pilgrimage to Angelic Pretty.
I really would like to buy a black parasol.
I wanted a BABY one, but AP would do too.

I want to take some time to do stuff on site again sometime.
I don't know if I'll have time for the next few days.
We'll see.
I'm so tired now.
I've been sleeping pretty late again.
Goodnight.

Dear Diary...
I know it's been a week, but I've had nothing to write really.
I haven't been on the computer much actually.

Here is my coord from my meet last week by the way.

I like how this picture came out.
I didn't wear my ringlet wig, I decided on the day.
I thought straight hair would suit it better.
I wanted to write about the meet in a more appropriate place on my site.
So I will do that soon.

Oh, I feel like my diet is in a shambles these days.
I have been not weighing myself much this week.
And exercising has felt so boring.
But I will try to focus again next week.
As I am not being as diligent, I'm slowing down progress a lot.

I want to write about Eurovision in the writings side of my site.
I really really like Hatari now.
I want to write about them too.
I very rarely fangirl over any group or person.
But I want to see this group live on day.

Anyways that's all for now, I think.
I need to get my thoughts in order.
I will write some stuff soon.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
Good evening.
I feel a bit better today.
I should go to sleep after writing.
I was thinking of doing something to my site but idk it's getting late.

I didn't weigh myself today.
I feel like I want to avoid it all week.
Not that it matters I guess..
I still have a way to go.
I'm now at the start of month 3 of my diet.
I've lost 3.5kg so far.
I guess I'm happy.
I know you can pretty much lose more than that in one month though.
But I guess I can try harder to lose 2kg each month.
I want to lose 10kg maybe so that's 5 months.
I can do it

I have a new steamer so I can steam my clothes again.
Oh and my Mam dress came.
I love the shade of pink.
It's surprisingly thin though.
I need to take pictures for my wardrobe page.

I started making a babushka scarf.
It's my first time making something so it's pretty basic..
I want to wear it with my Meta biscuit OP.
Since I can't find anything to wear with it.

I'm so tired..as usual..
My meetup is tomorrow, so I should sleep.
I want to take lots of pictures.
Usually I don't take many.
I want to write event reports on my lolita page.
Sorry, I rambled a lot today.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
Wow it's been almost a week.
I'm sorry.
I don't want to abandon my site or anything.
I've just been too sad to come online.
I've been feeling so overwhelmed.
I'm the type of person to stress over the little things.
I don't know how to make myself feel better.
I'm sleeping badly again.
And I'm overeating.
I'm in a bad cycle again.
But I really have to snap out of it.
I'm so down in the dumps.
I hate it!

Well, I hope all is well whoever you are, wherever you are.
I'll come back to my site sometime later.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
Good evening, I'm so tired.
I think I had a productive day!
I didn't go to the museum or anything, I decided to run errands.
I had to buy some stuff to prepare for my next meetup.
I read the trick to getting the shiny look out of synthetic wigs is dry shampoo.
And it works actually. My ringlet wig is considerably less shiny.
I also got some glue to stick down my Meta maid headband.
It started coming off on the sides.

I got ID'd for the glue and was suddenly confused.
Sometimes I forget I'm 21.
And my birthday's next month.
Do you ever get that feeling?
That you can't believe that you're the age you are.
I remember when I was 16 I asked my mum,
Will I change a lot by the time I'm 18?
I didn't believe I would change much in 2 years.
I don't know if I did, but I kept a diary at 16.
And I guess I was still kinda dumb.
I thought I'd change when I turned 17.
Well, my personality's the same, but I'm more mature for sure.
I know early 20s are meant to be super fun and crazy.
But I am having a more quiet youth.
I can't wait til I'm in my 30s.
When I won't be expected to act crazy.

I bought fake eyelashes today.
I decided, I'm going to learn how to put them on!
I've definitely tried fake eyelashes throughout my teenagehood.
But I never really learnt how to do it.
And I thought my eyes are too small for them.
But I guess I was always picking the wrong shape.
I tried something different this time, and it looked really nice!
And somehow I stuck them on well!
I think this is just what I need to elevate my makeup.
I'll practise again next week.

Then I've been planning other coords.
I've decided what I would like to wear for the old school meet.
And kind of for International Lolita Day.
But I kind of need to buy stuff for it.

Anyways it's coming up to midnight.
I'm too tired to stay up.
I didn't have time to do anything to my site today.
Oh, and I hit 10k hits.
I'm sure my constant editing contributed a ton to that aha.
But thank you for coming by anyways.
I hope you enjoy my site.

Goodnight

Dear Diary...
I've been doing a lot on my site this evening.
I think I've changed every background now.
Every page should be different, I think.
It's different to before, but I like it.

Finally, I bought some new bloomers.
I got some BABY torchon lace ones, I wanted some desperately.
Bloomers can be expensive, but I think they're worth it.
I also snagged a Mam JSK that was super cheap!
I was super happy.
I haven't bought lolita since last year.
All I need is a new longer petti and a black parasol.
I'm eyeing Maxicimam parasols but shipping costs kill me.
Especially if it gets caught by customs.

Oh, and horrible news.
I will be missing Eurovision this year.
My meetup will end up being later than planned, so I can't watch it live.
It's one of the highlights of my year, so I'm sad.
I should just try to enjoy myself anyways..
At least I can watch the semi finals.
But I must not get spoiled at all.

I might go out tomorrow.
If I sleep well enough.
I have some things to buy.
And maybe I can go to the museum..
If I feel like it.
Since I bought new stuff I feel like wearing lolita.

It's late.
Goodnight.

Dear Diary...
I'm writing before I feel too tired to.
I should go to sleep after this really, but I wanted to do more to my site.
I'm adding nicer backgrounds to my site.
I realised all the pages looking the same is too dull maybe.
But I can't decide on one background.
So I'm doing every page differently depending on what I like.
The site's already in construction and there's many pages still in the old layout.
So changes will come whenever spot something old.

I found cute graphics today.
Like this.
I like these sort of things, but I'm usually too lazy to use them.
But I think it's nicer to have something colourful.
So I'll use them when I have time.

In Animal Crossing I've had a bit of luck with furniture.
Chops put his Rococo sofa up for sale at re-tail.
And Gabi gave me a regal table.
And there was a lovely kitchen at TIY.
Usually I can't find any series I want.
I want to add outfit images to my ACNL page!
Since I really like hoarding clothes...

I don't know what else to write.
I feel like if I write everything on my mind it'll be too long.
That's why I need to make my random thoughts page soon.
So I can write whenever something pops into my head.
And I can write more of my inner thoughts.

It's late but I'm having hot chocolate.
I'm going to read some baking recipe books.
One summer I just spent it baking from recipe books for fun.
And I want to do that again this year.
So I want to decide what to make.

I think I might add more info on my about page.
I've been planning to do that for ages.
I get distracted easily.
Goodnight.

Dear Diary...
Good evening, I'm up late.
I just spent forever styling my ringlet wig.
I had abandoned it for at least a year thinking it did not suit me.
But I decided I will wear it to my upcoming meet.
Since the theme is OTT, I think a ringlet wig screams OTT for me.
It's not something I'd usually wear so it's nice to mix things up a bit.
I will wear my IW OP so of course I'm going in a maid coord.
I have an excuse to wear my Meta maid headband which really can only be suited for a maid coord.
I just want to figure out makeup now.
I want to try something different.

I cleaned my room today and I feel a lot better.
I'm still feeling a little wary from my nightmare the other night.
So I wanted to be productive today, just to raise my mood a little.
Before I went to bed last night I drew what I saw in my nightmare, to try to understand it a bit more
But I could not understand why it scared me.
But at least drawing it and writing about it made me feel a little less anxious.
I'll totally forget about it in a few days.

I need to update my Animal Crossing page tomorrow.
Chops is leaving.
I feel like he just moved in lol.
Oh and I have Friga now.
I rennovated my town hall to be the fairytale type now.
And I added a back room to my house.
I feel like the fully expanded rooms are just too big.
My main room and 1st floor room are fully expanded.
But I think I wont fully do the others..
My left room is just too cozy.
Although I feel like the one point of the game is too fully pay off the loan.
Maybe I should just expand then make another character.
I was thinking to make another character at some point in the future.
There are more series I want to collect.

Anyways I will stop writing.
I go to bed around 11pm these days.
I actually have been able to fall asleep by counting sheep.
I think my issue is that my mind never stops racing.
So now I can just focus on one thing.
Anyways, it's midnight now.
Goodnight.

Dear Diary...
I haven't written in a while.
I've been going to bed early, so I haven't had time.
Also I think I've burnt myself out on the internet.
Too much Netflix.
I just wanted to get off the computer for a while.
So I haven't touched my site in a while.

I've been feeling so bored.
But I lack concentration to read.
Hmm nothing stirs me these days.

Ugh, I had a terrible dream last night.
I did not think of it as a nightmare until I woke up.
I wouldn't call it gory, but just visually digusting.
And everytime I remember it I get uncontrollable goosegumps.
I won't write any more about it because I'll remember it if I read this again.

I ate so much today.
Ah, I'm not even interested to write about my diet.
I really am just so bored all of a sudden.
And I'm too jittery to write now.
I'll try to go to sleep now.
Goodnight.

Dear Diary...
Today I went out.
I actually saw some job postings for some vintage clothing shops online.
So I wanted to look at the shops.
But when I got there they were gone anyways.
So I just did some window shopping.
I wore Detective Poodle.

Usually I style it with pink.
But today I went neutral.
I usually wear a headdress, but I like it with a beret a lot.
It was a nice mild day, a little breezy.
Perfect for me, because I get hot easily with lots of layers.
I carried my parasol by habit even though it would be too cold in the shade.

I bought a new beret.

I've been wanting one like this!
This colour goes really well with baby blue.
I saw an adorable dress and an apron in a shop.
But the dress was like £85 and the apron was £45..
I don't even spend £85 on a Lolita dress.
Oh well, if I had some spare cash I'd have bought it.
It's not everyday I find something cute in a vintage shop.
In that shop a girl complimented my coord and said she'd just come back from Tokyo.

In a more 'cool' vintage shop that I did not suit at all, I found some cute skirts.
Even though they are my usual size the waist was too big.
It's usually like that.
But I do have a lot less chubbiness on my stomach now so it's too noticeable.
Even though it's only been a month and a half on my diet.
It's nice looking back at my chart and seeing how far I've come.

I went out to water my rose and there's a dead mouse right in the pathway.
Maybe my cat killed it but she usually tries to bring mice in at the door.
And really it might have been there a while..
I didn't even notice it when I went out and when I turned to go back I nearly stepped on it.
I will tackle it tomorrow.
Of course I'm hoping another cat takes it away somewhere tonight.
Goodnight.

Dear Diary...
I got my new Macoto book today.

It's so pretty.
It's smaller than the other one I have which makes it easier to hold.
I really like this one, it's separated into different themes.
Not just focusing on princesses and fairy tales.
He has drawn an African girl in this book.
Since his drawings are almost all blonde European girls I was happily surprised.
He clearly studies clothing and hair very hard to make it accurate.
So I think he could do any type of girl.
Also his traditional Japanese girls are pretty too.
Also there's lots of tidbits that he wrote about his drawings.
I am always moved reading he has been drawing these girls for over 60 years.

I have a perfect town in Animal Crossing now.
It's the first time, because I never really cared about that sort of thing.
And I have the police box.
Someone new will move in tomorrow.

I fell asleep early last night.
It was nice.
I just had to chug my hot chocolate.
I forgot about it.
I swear, it cools down quicker these days.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
Yesterday was the one month anniversary of my site!
But I couldn't write or update anything because I had a bad stomach ache.
I had undercooked my turkey rashers in the morning for sure.
I only had one slice so I don't know how it made me feel so ill.

I still exercised though, it was challenging.
There are different sections in my workout dvd.
And so I did the only part I hadn't challenged yet.
I thought first dancing section was hard, but this was another level.
It's all that jumping.
I had to pause in between to catch my breath.
But I did the whole section.
I don't know if I can say that it's fun.
But I always feel a bit excited to do it at first.
Then I hate it while doing it.
"You won't even feel your heart rate rising because it's dancing!"
The peppy lady says with an unwavering smile on her face.
No, I notice all right!

Since I was feeling ill, I watched Kamikaze Girls after a long time to cheer up.
I especially love the opening.
And I always cry at Ichigo's backstory.
Also, I never noticed before that Momoko wears Meta in the movie!
When she's embroidering the Baby dress, she's wearing Meta's Music Note JSK.

I was thinking of watch The Love Witch tonight.
But now I feel a little sleepy.
I almost suddenly fell asleep at 6pm.
It's that really uncomfortable heavy feeling I get when I just can't stay awake.

Anyways that's all for today.
Tomorrow will probably be a lazy day.
I'm waiting for a Macoto Takahashi book in the mail.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
Another revelation was made today.
I worked out why my favicon wasn't working.
I forgot the / thing in the image source..
So if it looks like I'm updating things it's probably the favicon.

I'm done with the site today anyways.
I added new pages and moved some things aorund.
Adding the sidebar is still in progress.
I'm still thinking of how to make my site look nice.
Maybe I need a header..

It's much earlier than usual but I'm sleepy.
I just want to play Animal Crossing and read this evening.
I slept through the night yesterday, though.
I sound like a baby lol.
Hopefully I can fall asleep quicker tonight though.

Somehow I lost 0.5kg today.
Especially as I had written about yesterday's endless snacking.
I know that what you eat the day before is not the sole factor for the next day's weight.
I'm sure I will gain some back tomorrow.
But it's the lowest since I started.
So that's quite encouraging.
I got a yoga mat so I can do the core exercise part of my workout dvd.
God, it really kicked my butt.
I can't even do push ups.
But I'll keep at it.
I'm excited to become fit.

I'm looking at my Mode Girl OP.
I really want to fit in it this winter.
It's literally the perfect length, even the perfect sleeve length.
But alas, it does not stretch an inch.
I've had this dress for 2 years.
Now I'm finally doing something about it.

I wrote a lot as usual.
I don't know if people would rather read long or short entries.
I guess they are both interesting.
I will be adding a page for random thoughts.
So I can just write about random things or topics that cross my mind.
I think you'll learn a lot more about me.
Other than me being an insomniac.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
I've cracked the code.
It's another case of my making silly mistakes.
I had an extra { thing in the style thing.
So nothing worked properly yesterday.
I'm quite chuffed I found it.

So my site is fully in construction mode now.
I'm changing my menu icons.
And I had to make a few new ones so things like games are easier to find.
So for now things are all over the place.
I'm not sure whether to keep the sidebar transparent or not.
I left my about page with a pink sidebar so I can mull over it tomorrow.

I barely slept last night.
When I'm super tired, it's like my diet goes out of the window.
I just want to snack.
So that's why at the very least I stress about sleep.

Cyrano is leaving my AC town.
Actually I'm glad because his house is in the way..
But, I've never been too bothered about townies.
Actually I'd rather try to have every villager live in my town once.
I caught a bee today.
I had good luck so apparently they move slower.
I don't think I ever caught one in Wild World so I'm happy.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...
As you can tell I've been faffing around with my website.
It looks like I've been updating a million times,
But I'm just experimenting.
I'm not sure I'm changing my icons or not really.
I added a scroll bar on my hompage and diary.
Now you can just scroll though my diary on one page.
I think it will be useful.

I'm probably not going to be able to make my site how I'd love it to look.
But for now I'm content.
It's a work in progress.
Please understand.

I added my Animal Crossing page too.
I was supposed to add my Style Boutique pictures too,
But that's when I got distracted.
Ah I must sleep..

Today was quite mundane.
..I can't remember what else I did.
My brain is turning off.
But I'm still bothered by my site.

OK I've just done more work whilst writing this.
Going to bed for real now.
Goodnight

Dear Diary...Happy Easter Sunday
I'm nibbling my chocolate bunny.
I haven't had chocolate in a long time so it's nice.
I really love white chocolate.

I enjoyed Bunny Day in Animal Crossing.
I collected all the Egg furniture as it's so cute.
I decided to put it in the museum.

The weather was nice again and I lazed around all day.
I talked to J on the phone today.
I love this feeling of getting closer to somebody.

I can't believe it's almost May.
And then soon my birthday.
And then summer..

I feel like my weight is stagnant.
But I'm having diffulty pushing myself.
I feel like I should push myself a lot more.
But I don't know.
It's not like my mind has wavered or anything.
I think I'm still being diligent.
I guess I am just expecting things to move along faster.

Usakumya got a wash today.
I've been waiting for warm weather to let him dry outside.
I think I will take him along to International Lolita Day.

I'm not in the mindset to think about seeing people though.
I like seeing my friends
But sometimes it feels suffocating to go outside.
If that makes sense.
As extreme as it sounds I wondered if I have agoraphobia.
I am forcing myself to go back to uni this year.
It's been two years of break (aka avoidance).
I just have to try to be prepared.
I have to be more serious.

But I don't want to think about that just yet.
There's still time.

I think I will read tonight.
I think I will re-read Emma.
Goodnight